My name is Adam.
Please take a walk with me, let me know, am I to blame?
I am 23.
I live in Oakland, California.
I think I put a lot less effort into tumblr and finding a way to sum myself up on the internet than I used to, and that's okay. Lately I write about life a lot, and there's bits and pieces of music scattered here and there.
Links of interest:
(my game music album is downloadable from bandcamp. Go check it out!)
God damn it, I practiced music ‘till sunrise again.
The worst part of outfitting our police officers as soldiers has been psychological. Give a man access to drones, tanks, and body armor, and he’ll reasonably think that his job isn’t simply to maintain peace, but to eradicate danger. Instead of protecting and serving, police are searching and destroying.
If officers are soldiers, it follows that the neighborhoods they patrol are battlefields. And if they’re working battlefields, it follows that the population is the enemy. And because of correlations, rooted in historical injustice, between crime and income and income and race, the enemy population will consist largely of people of color, and especially of black men. Throughout the country, police officers are capturing, imprisoning, and killing black males at a ridiculous clip, waging a very literal war on people like Michael Brown.
This quote just keeps cycling through my mind with everything I read about US policing lately.
Finally, this Polaris song is taking shape. I’m trying to record clarinet for the intro, but it’s tricky.
My dad’s upright bass sounds so good! This is the first time I’ve written an acoustic song that feels coherent in recording! It took me a while to get here, but I’m so excited to finally be making these recordings.
Strangely, I haven’t found room for cello or violin in this one yet.
How many people don’t ask for things directly because they don’t believe they’re worthy? How many times do I do that in my own life?
I think about that a lot. How much do I deny myself, do others deny themselves just based on what we’re all not willing to ask for?
Alright, so I’m teaching myself clarinet now. I got a new reed for my high school clarinet. Maybe one day I will know how to play every orchestral instrument…
clarinet is v. fun (plus what a gorgeous sound) but double reed is definitely the way to go. i’m not trying to convert you, but i’m definitely trying to convert you i.e. have you considered the bassoon??? (i suck at single reed instruments, but a previous housemate left an alto sax in my possession that i’ve been meaning to fiddle around with for ages)
playing every orchestral instrument was my goal when i was a kid (hence piano, trumpet, bassoon, double bass, plus fiddling around on cello and clarinet and various other brass instruments) and i still really want to play horn someday
Oooh, bassoon would be rad! It’s so pretty! I just have never had one nearby and so never have thought about it, but I compose with it a lot. Your childhood sounds like the coolest thing if that’s what you did during it.
I will most certainly have fun! :)
And french horn can sound so good. I hope one day that happens!